Tuesday, September 22, 2009

Lucky

I am one lucky girl I have decided… I have been sitting here looking at the photos in my frames at all the places I’ve been, incredible people I’ve met and awesome things I have been blessed to see and do…

Years ago I spent some significant time as a Mission Builder with YWAM in Hawaii. A time in my life that forever marked me, changed me and I truly believe was a turning point for me. Because of the people I met, the things I witnessed and experienced…

Lately I have been missing that, tremendously… Sometimes I think, should I have gone back, completed a DTS and gone on to who knows where? Those thoughts lately have shifted to thinking, I wonder if it’s too late? I mean for sure I would need to bust my tail and take care of student loans, consumer debt and all that fun “life” stuff before I really considered it, but I can’t help but think, daydream really about going back into a program like that. I miss the people that come from all over the world for one purpose…To know Jesus and make Him known, the promise of travel, the idea of travelling light and being ready to go wherever you are led to next.

There is this inner struggle in me that says “Do IT!”, and then the other more reasonable side that knows how terribly I would miss my family and my friends… Truly this is nothing more than a thought, a wistful dream if you will, of what might be or could have been. I know that I am right where I am supposed to be, and I am happy to be here in this place. Near my sister, niece and nephew, part of one of the most incredible communities ever and the stirring, all of it just comes together time after time to reconfirm that the Lord has brought me to this place, and I will stay set until he says other wise.

Recently a great friend of mine shared with me her desire to lead a Summer team to Amsterdam to minister to the women of the Red Light district. When she told me about her plan my heart started to pound with excitement!! I can’t wait to see where the Lord is going to take her on this journey and I already feel so lucky that I get to walk along with her as she goes after the burden on her heart. Stay tuned for news from Amsterdam….

The Lord is moving, what he is up to I am not quite sure yet, but he is stirring something about in me personally. Bringing back to light old dreams, new dreams, words spoken over or shared with me. That being said I am excited, nervous, but excited…